Blog conundrum

After I deleted my friendster account which also contained my first-ever blog, I transferred to more video friendly blog aka blogspot. However, unlike the first time, I let ppl know about my blog existence but this time my readers are only those who happened to trace bits and pieces I left around in blogsphere. Okay, some of them I did give them the link :P. Anyhuu, I have multiply acct, so to speak, for my recipes compilation. but it's annoying me as hell. I know, I know, there are plenty of cooking blogs why do I need to add another one. it is redundant. The thing is when I was at home or around, peeps were asking me how do I make this and that. the recipes are in the internet as well (it's where I got it at the 1st place). When my big sista was asking for a recipes ( does she has time anyway) I was kinda reluctant to tell her that,"oh, it's in my blog" and she will reply, " you have a blog?! why dont you tell me?". Errr..habislah takdak tempat nak ngumpat dowh.
Since I am dieting now and I really want make it as a VERY serious business and I really want to lose the excessive pounds, I'd like to open a new blog solely for my bitter strrrrrrrrugle to lose weight and look good and feel healthy and live longer. I will underline every little foodie that goes into my mouth and what I have done to wipe the calories. either cheat or truth. you will be exposed the ugly cottage cheese, the keg size belly, those jiggly chicken wings ( oh yeah I have wings that I can almost fly). Just kidding, no obscene of felsh will be on display. the most it will be my very round face with the double chin of course. probably a closeup to my gargantuan arm.
The other one which I updated during emotionally stressed. personal-realted issues. I put it for public for quite a while until I felt like it became too personal and too emooooooooooooo and I dont think so I am so ready to share that with anyone that intimate. Therefore, the belum pasti was launched due to my sporadic renewals of my enthuasims towards bloging. How's that. It's very touché journey

Not Again!

I got puss in my ear again. It's my earlope to be precise. this is my ummptenth time i got it there, either right or left. nad it came with one-side massive headache, and it's echoing like a cave inside there.
On the other hand, I have completed my resume and will send it to career center for scan thru. Writing a resume these days is not as easy as it used to be. to have good grades in your belt is not a VIP ticket to land you the best job in town. especially when you start mumble jumbo during interview - I tend to do that. Sheer luck is vital.
Speaking of which, I really need to gear-up the linux and unix programming, therefore, I canimpress my future employer with my software knowledge. Or at least brush up my rusty drawing software. But my laptop has broken ENTER key. and dearie M became such a procrastinator to fix mine. And I am hating this PC coz everything looks so blurry if i dont put a glass on (it's like ameter apart - the stupid LCD monitor saves space on the desk but so unfriendly to my blind eyes). but the ENTER key works. What a bummer. Cant win them all, they said.
Speaking of this which, I need to e-mail some friends for software and also to let know other friend to give anyone contact # for another friend.

btw, my kitties are not proportionate in size. 3 of them are 100grams more than the tiniest one. M and I is now his surrogate mother. and I have 4 male kitties. love 'em all

Last whole weekend I became a supir and M's royal escort to his shopping spree. Shopping with him was so NOT fun. He'll never let me out of his sight although I managed to dissapear in women and kitchen section for a while. But ofcourse, the consequence caused pain in ears with lame nags from M.
Well M, dont blame me if I MIA. It was a real torture to see you pick and choose any bargain while I just watched and bite lips.During that moment, I really wished I am working and have my own money to spend on me and only me without anyone scrutinize the price tag and reminding me about things I already have. I mean look at all my friends now, they all are climbing the ladder and I am struggling to write the never end resume. They have a solid experiences with global-wide networking and I only have prof who insisted me to do PhD. Can't he tell that I what am interested is only Mullah.
I am happy for my friend of course, but at my last reunion, be it my ol' friends from school or university, they all have careers, got promoted and whatnot. It pretty dissapointing too when I have to turn down some offers from south due to my status inability. But what stopping me from to find a job here, why I am so lazy to kick off for job hunt. WHAT THE HELL I AM WAITING FOR.

Seriously, I think I have problem with me.

anyway, M bought quite handful for himself and such a cute dress which I cannot fit. Dont worry baby, mama is working hard to squeeze in

layan

layan jugak minah ni but during AIM she was astounding pretty. mesti geram Faizal tahir tgk. huarhuarhuar, sorry aaa superman, Sinclair got her 1st, you'd better buckle up with yr wife and the bandwagon.

But kesian-lah this guy, malu giler. If I were the guy, probably the girl will be showering with the orange juice.

Speaking of this, jeng jeng jeng. flash back to ol' memories, my classmate, thegeek, used to hangout with me and the bunch of boys after class or during class break. Usually, he was a loner but one day after lab, he decided to loafing with us. He did most of the talkings, mostly philosophy type of conversation. And for some the reason the crowd that I hang out that day brought their lives' philosophies to the table. I also have pride to save okay, so I threw some bunch saying this and that and gave my smartest opinions to the group. and guess what thegeek was impressed with me and from that day, I noticed he started to hang out with us more often.
Yg tak bestnya, thegeek tak hensemlah. and he was such a dork.
Usually, after CAD class which was on Thursday's nite, we will go to Kenangan Inn for supper and real ghost stories that actually happenned around the hostel and school (interestingkan tp takut siall). And yg tak bestnya, evey thursday nite too, thegeek will hang with us and insisted to walk me to my college which is not that far from the boy's college. AArrgggg... tak mau. So, there was incident like Ingkar clip. Tapi aku lagi nastylah. Poor thegeek. I dont know where he is now, he flunked suring 3rd semester, he was too much on the computer. He actually broughthis laptop to the class and during that time what you need is only pen and notebook.

So what!

Curry was never my thing. I cooked one last nite and the taste was far from what I had it at home or someone else home. however, since I was so lazy to cook some nice dinner, I just cooked it with instant roti canai for a quick fix. Afterall, M was freaking hungry (the meeting in downtown only served crappy lunch - according to him)and I was lazy. So, during dinner, I shared his dinner since I dont want to overeat (remember that I need to shake off some lbs), as i dont fancy curry, I just dipped the roti canai with sugar. Well, this is not the 1st time, M saw me eating roti canai with sugar but he was wondering why dont I like to eat it with curry. Well, I told him that I dont like roti canai to begin with, and I used to skip breakfast if it's roti canai and if I have to eat it, I will eat it with onion pickles. Plus, I dont like curry. to my annoying, he was laughing his arse," you dont like curry? how many times I saw you eating curry ayam, beef, ikan at people's house or you cooked it many times at home."
Hellooooo!!!! first of all, I dont cook curry that often. I still have the same spices for more than 4 years and I cook it because someone requested it aka YOU. I tried to explain my beloved M, coming from Northern part of Malaysia, curry is a-must-have-dish on the table every SINGLE day. To cook it once in a blue moon does not make me a curry lover. As a matter of fact, I started to eat curry when I went to States. for some reason, I started to crave for food that I dont bother to eat in Malaysia. And funny, I dont mind eating all that anymore except masak lemak cili api or petai or tempoyak or nasi dagang or budu. they still dont cut into the list yet.

M mockingly said, " that's we called homesick." Eeeeee.. geramnya aku mamat ni

to be or not to be THIN

typical women's issue. I dont have to go further but after reading my ol' friend's blog that she's under heavy regime of toning down, I felt a bit motivated to shed some pounds. There are thousand of reasons which I can think of why do I need to lose some weight; to top them all is maybe M was getting tired with the way I look (yeah, so vain of him) and he kept using wedonthavekidnowbecauseyouaresofat excuse which i detest it so much. on the other hand, or rather, looking at the glass half full, my HEALTH. my health is getting deteriorate while the scale of my weight's going up.
But after 100th attempts of losing weight, I hope I can stay true and see some positive changing PHYSICALLY.

Can I discipline myself? we'll see from here. I hope M doesnt nag and shoot my spirit down with all his nasty remarks. He's like this monster from green stinky swamp when he saw me fasting or doing any diet thingy. how on earth will i be able to lose weight if i ever receive these kind of supports from him. I think the reason why I always quitting halfway is due to my retaliation towards him. rasakan ko.

Our bundle of joy

Our daughter has given birth to four beautiful kitties and they make M and I grannies. We were very thrilled and wowed with tiny ones and I really hope M will not proceed with his plan to give away some of the ugly kitties. Well, anyau didnt produce any munchkin or puffy kitties and therefore I dont feel any need to discriminate them all in how they should be loved and cared. Oh yes, I have a thing with cats especially kitties. they just bright my world with their red noses and hissing sound. Now, every morning, instead of hug or smooch me, I can see M tertonggek tonggek inside my closet to see the tiny-s and of course our always and forever tiny Anyau. Anyau was purring so loud whenever we pay her a visit in my closet. I can see that she try to dig my tudung box for a labor spot. Phewww.. Can u just imagine if that's really happened? and yes, Anyau has a taste too, she delivered the kitties in style ~ on my ettienne and 9W handbag and I dont even use my 9W bag yet. the price tag is still there. ~sigh~
M has to work hard since he has a family of 7 to feed and I desperately need to expedite my job hunting process. We need bigger poop sand box and special cat litter. and of course, we will defenitely has to spay anyau and her tykes. and she needs an extra injection coz my daughter now is bohsia in making. it seems like all the neighborhood male cats has their share in Anyau's produce.