i always proud of M.
He is kind, caring and helpful

but there are times i get all upset

likewise

there are times i think how far our communion would last

many times

would it be till death do us part or it just a matter of time


but what would it takes to make it fall apart

Another woman?
different sight of future holds?
family values?
principle values?

and the list goes on and on

and again i think back what keep us together and or what make us want to stay together

love?!!

kids?!!

je ne sais pas

could i live without him or could he lives without me?

je ne sais pas

#hindsight

penat la oiii

the job is going super awesome.

got promoted within 2 months. Alhamdullilah.

but of course with some office-drama.

c'est la vie du bureau.

but i pretty much leave office by 8 or 9pm just to wake up at 4am to continue some office matters.

never end and i think i quite missing the ol' life a bit

Mulut orang

Brick and stone can break you, but words can't.

I chose to keep mums on my moving cross the province and my new employment status.
Of all the things, I feel that only few who really care and who really happy for me.

But again having to move out from O-town means M and I will become the weekend couple again.

this time it was a bit hard on me emotionally and physically.

M is such amazing husband. Only Allah the Greatest can ever pay his kindness and supports to me. All the texts on how I made him so proud, the phone kisses and virtual hugs he gives me every night, just makes my life gets better and better each day.

I've been meaning to write something else, but i feel to write something that would make me feel grateful. And I never been more grateful than being Mrs M.

:)

time to bid adieu!

to 2013
to Ottawa

embrace a new phase of life
embrace a new place
embrace new people

and most importantly a new me

leaving behind bad memories
bringing with me good memories
looking forward for more wonderful memories

May Allah ease my journey and make it smooth

to loving husband. I am truly blessed to have you by my side. to support me all the way in the way I need to be supported, morally, physically and *cough* financially.

May Allah rewards you tenfold for what you had given.

I pray to all my families and friends, may the best yet to come in 2014.

Allah always has a better plan for us.

clothes

due to my medical condition, M's house chores increase accordingly.
the other weekend, I asked him to bring the clean laundry to the room so that I can fold them.

after putting them in the room , he came to me and said, " I even folded them you know"

and today, when I was about to arrange the clean folded laundry, I wished that he would only stick to bring them to the room.

haih!

it's been  a while since my last post.

month of June - the bearer of tears of joys and goodbyes

but the saddest moment is yet to come.

and I am so not looking forward to it especially when eid is approaching

the routine of past 6 years will no longer be a routine.

will miss a best friend and sister.

what joy do I have left

i dont enjoy my living in O-town anymore.

fed up with fake smiles 

dia buat lagi

this week, left and right,  if it's not so and so told me she's pregnant or most of the blogs I visited screamed out loud that the yours truly is mom to be or about to give birth.

sigh not to the mommies  but to me.

for that reason I was breakdown when M and I had a beautiful Sunday stroll.

sometimes the pregnancy madness really make my head cuckoo banana.

*******

To try to get pregnant at the later age of life is exhaustively difficult. We failed to foresee the  associate pain that came with the days that added to number of our age. Back pain, headaches, migraines and all that jazz. Yep, i have to say sometimes (most of the times actually) I envied those who just got knocked up like pick a flower.

And I have to endure all the acupuncture needles, the pills that make me super emotional and mentally unstable and  a the most displeasure thrust into my V for ultrasound.

dont tell me to stop my whines. let me crying my beer out loud. pffttt

                                                                           oh yeah!