Tuesday, June 7, 2016

I miss you mak!

Hello 30 weeks!

Yesterday my feeling was a roller coaster. I got huge panic attack. I badly want my mak to be by my side. I even felt to dig her grave and do whatever to make her alive.

I was so scared. I need her soothing voice to calm me down. I need her small hand to hold me tight. I need her voice to tell me, everything will be just alright.

The baby growth rate is unstoppable. Today alone, she kicked my ribs like nobody business. Oh we will see you when you out of my womb. I probably scared she will be a little me. A tiny energy bunny. I will lose some weight for sure and daddy will lose some hairs.

This is the first time, I didn't follow M for terawih. I retorted but he said for my own good. He reminded me that I am heavily pregnant. It's time for me to have more rest but by doing so I become so restless.

Ya Allah, please ease my affairs. Ameen