ku beserah kepadaMu

at first, I was thinking to blog about it. then, when I watched the news about Gaza and whatnot, suddenly I felt, mine was nothing compared to horrendous tragic over there. emotionally and physically.

Alhamdullilah, the hikmah from all these; a state of realization for me of a man who always be there when I have abandoned him so much for such a long time for some ephemeral plastic companionships.

And I decide to stop thinking of others except for him.

suddenly, life is a breeze. no more unnecessary extra baggages.

I start to like a new moi.

oh la lahhhhhh

Will resume my french class soon. bad thing is need to pay $25 for one course, unlike when I was in Quebec, they actually paid me to go to french class (ok per $90 sebulan). The admin is a bit friendly compare to my previous experience but of course as M always told me, immigrant usually nasty to another imigrant-incident. and this time I dont bother to talk about it.

My new year?!

Again, Georgarian new year never plays anything in my life, except for the number changes and so do my duniawi-activities related. My maal-hijrah was a bit dull. I missed to make awal and akhir tahun doa but I managed to fast 2 days. Thinking to fast on 9 and 10 Muharram but completely forgot about it and dear M just reminded me on 10th of Muharram and technically, he reminded me on the nite of 11th Muharram (after maghrib la tu).

My year of 2009 began with sad stories; from family and friends and M's paycheck which will make a huge impact on my finance. And as my prediction, my Credit card privilege had been stripped just like that. hmmm..sayonara gold, welcome dust.

everything's now on cash. haiii menyesai cheq p introduce "till debt do us part" TV series. how I am taking it. actually not too bad. coz he always told me to keep the change - which later will top for his Tim Horton's coffee and timbits and sometimes my breakfast egg and cheese sandwich.

My pretty boys, half of them now is officially pondan. their manhood was now in memory. daddy has used his veto-power to decapitate their balls and mummy has to suck it up in order to keep them.

tapi yg menyesai tak sudah la ni dia jugak. Myself - lost with words. How I wished that I am in Malaysia where my male and female feline children can carefree wuth what they've come into this world naturally.

My resolution. uh huh - I was thinking that I might go for an offspring last year but nil. so, i figure that a resolution will not do any good without an effort.

My 2009 will be whatever Allah has in His plan. suprise me.

Selamat menyambut maal hijrah and happy new year everyone

Incompetent

Feel like to kick some arses

The 7 itch years

On the way to M's office, M asked me what date is today

Dlm hati aku pehal mamat ni. And suddenly, my jaw opened and I was in deep horror," today is our anniversary!!"

Dang, I completely forgot about it and he even hinted me 2 days ago.

To be honest, I am not really sure whether it is 16th of 17th but one thing forsure it was a 2nd day of raya.

definitely we will have a dine outside.

Thank you M for still wanna be around and spending your life with me.

Je t'aime beaucoup.

Dine and Guests

Actually I wanted to write some occasions I've encountered during eid adha. But it will take sometimes and thoughts to write about it. It's more about me being here in this kafirun country, moreless about the question of the strength of my faith. Or at least peeps who call themselves as a muslim although some of them who I felt a bit resilient to potray as one, will take some time to think or just "sit back and do nothing'. I talked about this issue before - in my friendstre blog where I shared some of the Friday's khutbah about halloween. Once in a while, we need that kick or smack in the head to wake us up from this kelalaian duniawi.
At this moment, I need to concentrate to cook for dinner for our guests where one of them will go back to homeland for good and finish up his thesis back home while reporting back to work. And the other one, who also come from the same country, visiting the fil who is just recovering from bypass surgery and missing a family.

So tonite, I will cook ustaz's favorite: Ayam masak Paprik, Ikan masak 3 rasa, teloq bungkuih and sayoq campoq.

Thinking to make murtabak as appetizer. we'll see first. afterall M already cleaned up the house and the guest room. It was pain in the pungkok coz he actually had to prodigously scrub the carpet using the wet cleaner vacumn and three times of vacumming.

No wonder he wanted to reduce the population of the feline in da house so badly.

kannn!!!!!!!!!

When it rains, it pours

kenapalah mulut laki aku ni masin sgt

today is such a chaos


will update when the rain stop or in this case, the snow, the hot water tank, anyau's incision

Thrid times a charm

0 + 3 = 3
1 + 2 = 3
7 + 5 = 1 2 -> 1 + 2 = 3

Maybe 3 is my lucky number but again I only believe in Qada' and Qadar.