there's nothing more I want than to be with mak on eid

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Pada ayah bonda dan saudara...
Restu ayah bonda kuharap selalu
Demi anakmu yang kini jauh

why

Merits ..not

Well, i was working hard to convince people to see me passed through all the qualifications I have.

It just papers ... people

Cant u judge me according to how hardworking person I am.

Those grades are not that easy to achieve

try to look on that's prespective

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moons back, we invited someone new to town to comeover to our house. Least to my knowledge, he's someone important in someplace.

Like I care

M hinted him on why dont I apply for the job of that someplace (apparently that someplace is work-in-progress). M's mobility should be no issue if we moved somewhere remote.

Hell yeah, now I do care.

I didnt invite him for networking nor for looking advantage of gimme-job plezz. I am just looking for a platonic friendship.

nevertheless, I thought by playing deaf to all the annoying hints from M, he will just drop it and forget about it. However, Mr someone started to share his interviewing experiences with high flyers cum laude 1st class honors graduates.

Tell you, nothing nice about it ok.

For him these geeks only belong to academia cocoon and only fit to be a teacher or professor. Nothing where else, those brains are no good for industry. they just cant performed with their hands. they are theoretical, aint practical.

Crossed his seat, there was me, bit my tongue, I swear I tasted blood.

episodes

pindah ke rumah satu lagi

Doa

tomorrow will be one of my important days of the year.

Ya Allah , murahkan rezeki hambaMu ini

Wasting my time

Am I?

M said I am

but hold..

about what??!!

he said I didnt learn from my lesson

KeIkhlasan does not exist in this society anymore?!

Why should I have doubt if the only reward I wanted is from Him.

afterall those schmucks have gone and the leftovers..

I dont care about the leftovers

dah otai lagipun kan

Tuang

only trueblue kedahan knows what's the word mean.

Been slacked on my French class. and the facilitator is being hardarse.

at least he said " tu es bon etudiante"

But I need M to translate most of the voicemail.

the phone rang but I was too busy scrubing the tub. And the shower curtain is gross.

it used to be M's chores to keep the washroom sparkling clean but he has new task of keeping other toilet sans faeces.

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and Saturday will be the 1st day of Ramadhan Al Kareem.

I know Malaysia is scorching hot but it doesnt deter my longing to celebrate the holy month with bonda..

oh well, denial denial.. weather deters me alot. the sun and humid has pushed me as far as I can go north.

33 deg in Ottawa run me down like old dehydrated dying woman.

haih.. I need to go back. I want to go back.

bits from tanahair terchenta

Singapore-based Malaysian model accepts punishment for drinking beer
A Muslim model sentenced to six strokes of the cane for drinking beer will be the first woman in Malaysia to be caned under Islamic law, her lawyer said Wednesday.
Kartika Sari Dewi Shukarno, 32, was sentenced to a caning and a fine of 5,000 ringgit (1,414 dollars) last month after she pleaded guilty to drinking alcohol at a hotel nightclub in the eastern state of Pahang last year.
The Malaysian mother of two, who lives in Singapore, told AFP that she was willing to receive the punishment after the Sharia High Court in Pahang on Tuesday issued a warrant for her arrest.
"I received a message from my dad yesterday. So I come back to Perak (from Singapore)," she said.
"I accept the punishment. I am not afraid because because I was ready to be punished from day one. They (authorities) hope to use my case as a way to educate the Muslims. So go ahead. I want to move on with my life.
"I am not worried at all nor do I want to avoid the punishment because I accept the punishment," she added. Kartika's lawyer, Mohamad Zuki Che Muhamad Ghani, said his client would be jailed on August 24 for one week before the caning.
"The warrant of arrest was issued to facilitate the caning," he told AFP.
"She has to be jailed first and undergo health check-up to determine whether she is fit to be caned. She will be the first woman in the country to be caned under the religious laws," Mohamad added.
Kartika's father, Shukarno Mutalib, told AFP that the family accepted the court's decision.
"We are not feeling sad. We are Muslims and I agree she has to be caned. She has already pleaded guilty. We will follow the rules," Shukarno said.
Mohamad said Kartika had lived in Singapore for 15 years after marrying a citizen of the city state.
Malaysia, which has large Chinese and Indian minorities, has a dual-tracked legal system. Sharia courts can try Muslims for religious offences.

Does she repent on her wrong doing? I dont think so.

dunia oh dunia.. betapa kau hanyalah sementara

Holly jolly day

This is my first time going for a trip with M's friends. But again, I had to do all the administrative works. Well, If I let M do all the things, and with his taste, we'll spending lot more than we should.

All and all, the trip wasnt that bad although the mija puked like every 5km and made the ride on GMC Acadia (my first time on large SUV too) a bit distasteful. but kid always be kid.

Indeed, my french improved at least 50%. as I told M earlier, the spouse of his friend would practice her English with me and due to my limited vocabulary, I'd slipped a word or two in bahasa melayu.

My right brain was working extra hard last weekend switching from one language to another. Much better comparing to M switching 5 languages altogether.

Anyway, I think M and I are physically ready for little monkeys, but I have to admit to go places that has a lot of them, a tortured hell for a tormented soul.

A short one

Not that I completely ignore this blog

but plenty of things need to be done

and the negligences of my new project, enough to put off the flame of my friend's enthusiasms.

But I am currently doing something by far most important although it is almost a year late.

and one thing I found out, good deed is totally an addiction. Aint for the praise nor the fame. A simple thanks is like beacon shining bright my darkness night.

M undeniably lost in understanding me. poor soul.

Bidaah

Few days ago marked one of the nights in Islamic calendar as a Nisfu Sha'baan.

Years ago when I was in kampung terchenta, mak, sistas and I will dutifully make a circle and recite Yaseen 3 times after maghrib prayer.

After I got married, the practise still continue sans the female relatives for the 1st 3 years and it has been in hiatus ever since.

Determine to rekindle the annual routine, I impatiently waited for Nisfu Shabaan to come. On the nite that I supposed to recite Yaseen 3times, I researched for the particular doas that accompany each recitation.

Nevertheless, what I found is otherwise.

But I love remembring the memories of my sisters and mom sat together and recite Yaseen.

Finally, I settled by only 1 recitation and promised to make it everynite for this month.

why I made a promise I cannot keep