hang to it

For the past 7 hours I planned to study, I wasted on Spider solitaire, Restaurant makeover, 1 hr back to back SATC old episode, yakking over the phone, checking friends' blogs and of course blogging.
the fact that my 'enter' keypad completely kaput, no matter, how hard i poked the metal that supposed to be so ultra sensitive to silicon cap, I found a way to hit an enter key.

Brilliant! Another way to waste my freaking limited time for something that heaven I need this so badly.

Of course, studying LSAT is freaking BORRRINGGG. I wonder whether my left brain is still functioning.

It felt like taking microbiology all again. I aced that one, can I ace this one?

I think I need to kick the cats out from the guest room and I need to kick my arse off. be more serious and suck up to whateva mood I am having.

je suis malade and je suis tres fatigue mais il y a beaucoup les choses que je doit faire.
Pourquoi???!!!!

I am so in need of maid. I want the house to be vacuumed everyday and the cats poop in the bowl. ala bang oii, bila nak jadik expat p 3rd world country. boleh i jadik mem.

I wished

I wished I was small and life is simpler

I wished I have a supernatural power that can bring those fudging idiot road bullies down

I wished mak is younger and ayah still alive

I wished I can get this feeling away for good.

I wished I can be the old me

I wished I lost a lot of weight effortless

I wished I wont fall asleep and fit enough to stay up and study like it is tomorrow

I wished I am driving that RX hybrid SUV Lexus

I wished i will bear a child of my womb and the child will be as healthy as a horse.

Orang Kampung Koi

Recently I received, well technically I didnt, but a friend to a friend of mine did. I was invited to their house to meet their friends, Ganchongcouple. Despite what he and she is, they are one of very down to earth peeps I've met. and to my suprise or nothing to be suprised with this a very small world, he was my uncle's classmate.
Meeting them like meeting an old friend. we laughed, we shared stories/experiences, we ate and all the good stuff. I mean, how many times in our lives, we will meet peeps like this and I am blessed to meet them. Hopefully we will meet again.

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Speaking of another small world incidents, I came to know a young lad from Kulim whom I probably never met him during my years backhome. Not that Kulim is such a big town but he was still in elementary when I left home. Chat and talk and yik yak, the mother was a teacher of the same school as my dad's. I mean, out of all schools in kedah, and the fact that the school that my dad used to teach is out of Kulim's skirt. what a story. I believe his mom would feel relief as heaven knows to know that someone is here. but to my other suprise, my cousin married to his cousin. well, I got all the relative networking thing going on here. M, ofcourse, on the other hand could not really comprehend the big-deal of all these. but that make us Malaysian. we look out for our peeps especially in perantauan.

loss

the fetus was only 2 weeks old.

every weekend I always have something to do.. haiih

update

haiya sulah bersawang wa punya blog ya know
Not that I dont have anything to write, it just that I have a lot of them but laziness takes its toll on me and M mostly occupied my lappy instead of his. Talking about total demolition of my crappy lappy.
Anyhood, as I less expected, my weekends are mostly filled with invitation to open house and I was extremely exhausted.
M already whined about us of not really spend a day between us at home (by us he meant the purrs). But at least we got new flat TV. Not that it is something HUGE coz I dont care nevertheless. But the fact that we got it SUPER utterly cheap, make the whole deal pretty bizarre. Biasalah i kan orang kampung, ada sikit perak lah kan.

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I've been slacking in work searching. I really really HAVE NO IDEA, what's demoralized me, I want moolahs but I just get lazy. went for interview but freaking lazy to follow up. Wanted to do my P.Eng but I actually need a total of 48months of working experience and which by the way I was automatically deducted 12 months due to my ass kicking at school. but the coolest thing about EIT in Canada, I dont have to cramp and squeeze all the juice of my dormant and laggard brain for 8 hours exam in a freaking coldest hall in the world anymore. But I need to sit for ethics and law exams. and I need to WRITE.

Yeah WRITE like writing an essay. and once I am over with it, I will be EIT certified.

Speaking of which, I attended their seminars. M was upset for I didnt seize the opportunity to make a networking. Hon, the seminar was at greenery room at travelodge unlike your seminar at upscale restaurant The Foundation in downtown. the refreshment they served was a stale and hard as rock muffin with cheap coffee. tell me how am I suppose to light up the mood. The food made me a frozen corpse.

The fact that I was the only one unemployed attendee made me the sourest of all sour grapes in the world and I hate the fact that some dudes bla blaing that they've worked for freaking 5 years as an engineer and making $68,000 per year and freaking EIT is on their freaking way to be P.Eng certified...

and lovely Pomonagirl e-mailed me. My soul is wishing hard that miracle would happen.

it's too ealry to give up. never too late to stop.